When I first found that my child may have a genetic disease, my first thoughts were those of "Why me?" and "How can we be the one in 500,000 - everyone else has "normal" babies, why am I so unlucky?" - but now I have a slightly different perspective... If our baby does have a genetic disease, and if I do believe that God is the creator and giver of life - then HE not only "allowed" this, he also intended it for a reason. So out of 500,000 other families that God could have allowed this situation to affect, He chose us. And out of every other family in the world, he chose us to be the parents of this special little girl who's going to be joining us soon. Instead of this being a burden, I know that it will be an opportunity. I feel so blessed and excited to welcome our daughter into our lives - and although I am aware of the difficulties which we may face due to her medical situation, I know that we will be strong enough with God's help to face it with grace, love and hope :)
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you," says the LORD. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.
Romans 8:28
And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.
This is such a beautiful post, Nicole. And while it might seem shocking to most after all the tragedy we went through, I have always felt the same way about Madelyn - that we were chosen to be her parents, and I feel honored about that, and wouldn't have had it any other way. We won't get to spend life on earth with her, but a whole eternity with her in heaven awaits us, and maybe it's only then that we will know why we couldn't keep her in this life. But then, we will be reuinted, so nothing else will matter.
ReplyDeleteYou have a much better attitude than I did at this point in my pregnancy with Grant. It took me a while after Grant was born to realize how special he was and how lucky we were to have him. It's amazing how God finds ways to bless us even through the toughest trials in our lives. We'll keep you guys in our prayers!
ReplyDeleteI think for me it helps that we have a "most probably non lethal" diagnosis now. I think I'd be feeling a lot less positive if I didn't have that... I feel like with going from "probably lethal" to "probably non-lethal", I've got a LOT to be thankful for!!
ReplyDeleteWow, NIcole, you really got a good grasp of what many LP parents get much later or never..... I also feel very special and chosen having Amelia in my life. Your precious daughter is very fortunate to have you for her mom. With such wonderful attitude nothing is impossible and sky is the limit. You will always be happy and will continue to inspire others. God bless you both.
ReplyDeleteLOVE this post!!!! You are spot on! I could barely thin straight when I was at this point in my pregnancy with Sonya. If I had read this post back at that time I would have felt so uplifted! You are blessed and so is your sweet baby girl to have such a wonderful mom with a beautiful outlook! Thinking of you! :)
ReplyDeleteLove how you give glory to God in the midst of all this terrible turmoil Nicole. I honestly don't think I'd be strong enough to have your mindset but God obviously chose your and Bernie to be her parents because He trusts you in this. God bless you guys! loads of love ,Cody
ReplyDeleteI teared as I read this. I believe that God chose you because you have the means and the strength to see this child's life through. You're going to be the perfect family for this child to grow with. Bless you and your family Nicole!
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